It's very easy to hide behind the idea of letting a piece of work speak for itself, to keep things neutral and hold yourself apart from the things you create, believing you are establishing an identity through your work. But documenting events as they happen is not the same as create original conceptual work - whether it's art or photography or writing.
So I'm going to start by being more honest. By sharing thoughts, instead of simple recounts, instead of mere reactions. And hopefully, somewhere, my voice will emerge.
And the truth is that, recently, I've had my mental strength tested to the limits by my own body. It's been a long battle coming and the tide has recently turned badly. I'm still lucky - it's not life-threatening, it's not contagious. It's just physically and mentally draining.
I was raised - like many others - on fairytales, Hollywood movies and dramas. I think, on some level, I believed that, should I ever be tested, I would become the strong main character, smiling in the face of adversity and hiding our demons from loved ones.
There are no main characters. This is not a story. I have been fortunate that I've had very little experience with suffering up until this point - but that has made it harder to scramble for light and positivity.
Don't take your health for granted.
I am fighting, through this and through exams. I will see you on the other side.
In the meantime, here are some long-overdue photos from happier times at the Vivid Sydney festival. There aren't many changes going from year to year and, as someone who dislikes large crowds of people, is much more chaotic than the photos might suggest. But a bit of colour is always a lovely complement to city night lights.
I've been dying to eat at the Guylian Cafe and pay for an overpriced Vivid-special dessert (clearly). It was a rich and decadent chocolate piece but, honestly, Guylian's hazelnut praline remains the feature that sets it apart from its competitors so I would definitely recommend their standard flavours over this, as pretty as it is